not my own...

So…If you know me at all, you most likely know two things about my life—I’ve wanted to move to Africa since I was 15 years old, and I always have a plan.

A year ago at this time I was preparing to go to South Africa for the first time. God had opened the door for me to live my dream, for 5 months anyways, and I was beyond excited—that seems like years ago. So much in my life has changed and adapted over the past year….I honestly am a different person.

Since graduating high-school I have always had a plan…I knew where I was going to college a year before it was time, and I knew what I would study long before I arrived on campus. After college the plan was to go straight to seminary, hopefully meet someone, get married, and move to Africa working for the mission board. Well, as most of you know…..that is not what happened.

I instead took a semester off to move to South Africa, then when I came home decided to take online classes, and now, a year later, I am preparing to move back for over a year…on my own

My life doesn’t look anything like I thought it would 2 years ago, and I am so thankful for that. God has continually shown me that His ways are far better than my own. So what happens next? I have no idea….I know in about 3 months I’m getting on a plane to begin living a dream I have had for 7 years…to live in South Africa and have the opportunity to work with sweet children everyday…an opportunity that I am so unworthy of.

And for once…I do not have a plan. I have thrown it out. I don’t know what my life will look like a year from now; however, I know that no matter, I will be resting in the sweet will of my Father—whose plan is far better than my own. No more lists…no more following selfish ambitions…just me, trying daily to somehow grow closer to my Savior.